Tuesday, June 7, 2011

"This one's for you and me..."

I like this picture because it shows a lot of what Ally and I do together. We make each other happy. We laugh a lot. Together we're clumsy, dorky, goofy, and overall the perfect pair.
Yep. We're best friends.

I like to say Best Friends Forever, but sometimes I'm not sure. What comes before forever? Does going to different schools come before then? Is there always a possibility of replacement? I'm afraid.

Last week I sat in Ally's car staring at my least favorite building. We were giving someone a ride home from Maeser, but just seeing the school put me in a foul mood.
It had tall, white pillars that loomed over us as if to express superiority. All it is is a cocky school for spoiled rich kids, I spat in my head. Charter schools had never seemed so evil until Ally told me she was going to one.

That was why the end of eigth grade stung so badly. I knew Ally and I would never spend lunch roaming the halls of Canyon View together ever again.
No one wanted to say goodbye, but I have to say no one is going to miss her as much as I will. Ally has always been there for me. She listens to my ramblings when I've had a bad day, she's willing to spend time with me whenever I feel lonely, and she trusts me with everything. I know everything about her and she knows everything about me. We look nothing alike, but we call ourselves sisters. We're always there for each other, no matter what.

She's been in my ward for 11 years, but we weren't friends until we went to the same school in 7th grade. I don't remember what our first conversation was about, or how we even began to interact. When I look back, it seems like it all just came naturally.

I guess that's why this scares me. We weren't friends until school, and without school, what will become of us? We have all summer together, but it doesn't seem like enough. She'll go to Maeser and find a new best friend with straight teeth and a freckle-free face, and I'll be left wondering what happened. Friendships like ours don't just end. Do they?

Ally recently discovered a song called Lighters by Eminem featuring Bruno Mars (I HATE Eminem but I absolutely adore Bruno Mars). It says, "This one’s for you and me, living out our dreams. We’re all right where we should be." This song will always remind me of now. This time, this place, and the time Ally and I spend together, possibly the last turn of the rollar coaster.

But even if it's time to get in the car and go back home, I'll never forget this. Ever. It's been the ride of my life.
"You and I know what it’s like to be kicked down,
Forced to fight,
But tonight we’re alright.
So hold up your light,
Let it shine.
Cause this one’s for you and me,
living out our dreams,
We’re all right where we should be.
Lift my arms out wide,
I open my eyes,
And now all I wanna see,
Is a sky full of lighters..."

3 comments:

  1. Dang Tessa that is the worst picture of me ever!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU TOOOO DEATH!!! And I sincerely promise i will NEVER forget you, that’s imposable you are my best friend and one of the only people I can talk too. You have always been there for me. And you have changed my life. You helped me through the thick and thin and seen me at my worst (like the picture above) and still decide I am worth something. And do you know what’s longer than forever? Eternity. You are not my best friend forever you are my best friend for all eternity. And I love your freckles btw every single one! A face without freckles is like a sky without stars. And I won’t let you forget me and I won’t forget you because you know I am going to harass you like every day! And have sleepovers like all summer long! <3 and without you who would eat our Tessa soda and Tessa cereal? We couldn’t just let it sit around. So today might be a tragedy tomorrow might seem like a fantasy but in the end everything turns out ok. Because we’re all right where we should be; even if we don’t like it. In the end we will look back when we are smokin hot grannies and be like dude I love my best friend and nothing can ever tare us apart. I mean NOTHING. -Ally

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  2. Tessa!ally will never forget you! do you know how i know! if she ever does then i WILL go to her house and fork her lawn so it says TESSA! s no worries!!

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  3. Again Tessa I am sorry. I hope that church activities can keep you two together. She will be in Mia Maids with you really really soon :)

    Sister Francom

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