There are a lot of things I miss. I miss spending time with Kayla, I miss lost friends, I miss all of the opportunies I had to make my life happier. If you could live your life all over again, would you? There are days I wish I could go back and change all of my mistakes.
When I was a little girl my mom used to always say to me, "Tessa, I love that you always have a smile on your face, from the time you walk up the stairs for breakfast to the time we tuck you in at night." When Janell moved out of the our house I became really depressed, and mom never said that to me anymore. I'm just now becoming happier with myself and my wonderful life.
Though I'm one of those people that believes that everything happens for a reason. Whether it's for the purpose of meeting a new and better friend, getting a better job, or purely just learning a lesson. We all learn through our experiences.
I think about that guy I once liked. He started talking to me because I was shy and he wanted to get to know me better. If I would have overcome my level of shyness beforehand I might not have ever become his friend. Maybe I was supposed to have those painful years in elementary school of hiding away from the world in order to have this big change in me in seventh grade. If I had never become his friend I would have never learned so many lessons. One of the things I've learned most recently is that you don't need the approval of a boy to be happy. You don't need praise from others to be who you are. If someone doesn't like the real you, then that's their problem. We are all individuals of divine worth. We all have something different to contribute to the world and the people around us.